Notice:

No internet access+Cannot kope wireless networks anymore=Cannot blog

quite sick and tired of living my life without internet. this is the second time i stopped blogging due to lack of internet access. quite pissed off.

this blog most probably will not function anymore. it'll just serve as a reference for these few chapters of my life.

if i start blogging again i may not use this url anymore. champion slacker has faced his final judgment.

Will I change or not is another matter of course.

Broken on stage.

Risen on piste. 9-0 run.

"When you are with me
I'm free, I'm careless
I believe
Above all the others
We'll fly
This brings tears
To my eyes
My sacrifice"

TO GOD BE THE GLORY.

ps: Erika Sawajiri from <<1リットルの涙>> looks like Yuna! <3

Teachers Day

I've not been blogging consistently recently, which I think is a pretty good thing because it shows that I'm busy with my life. I've not been able to access internet regularly too, which I guess is a pretty good thing too because that will take away one great distraction before promos.

It's really great to catch up with teachers that have taught me last year... glad that they still remember me haha. My chinese teacher knows me best... he knows how restrained I feel with the local education system. It's really fun to talk crap with J Wong again as a 4H gang.. really miss those days I must say. Met De Cruz on the way from RJ to RI to RJ back to RI. Not sure if he remembers me though.. judging from his smile I think he does. Me and my speech on "My Passion for Slacking" lol.

During this period of time that I've not blogged I realised that I've reminisced quite a bit.. like walking around pasir ris and loyang point.. It's really touching to be reminded of all those memories I've had back there.

I think we've had a great band meeting today.. hopefully it will be able to run as smoothly as we've planned.

I embarked on "Death Note" recently.. it has a brilliant plot to start with. I think it's quite funny when I approached the cashier with a "Death Note" in one hand and a "Nana" in the other, as they are really different in nature lol.

"True love is not possible between humans"...?

"No matter how close two individuals get, they will never be able to fill up the sense of loneliness in each other"-Ren, Nana, volume 14...?

"Dun worry I'll always remember you yea."

23460JQA

I lost with such a hand in bridge..
thanks to someone with only a single yellow "8" who called "4 yellow"...
damn.

cya!

Pesta Sukan 2006

45-44 . A new record since this year U-20's 45-43. What more can I say? The best adrenaline rush from fencing I've ever had.

Why am I not feeling as happy as I should have been? Is it because I'm a colder person now?


Humility.

1st Blue T-shirt

Thanks V for adding a blue T-shirt to my black and white wardrobe. It is a day worth remembering.


August 9 2006

Admiralty National Day Programme

恋爱频率

男:好久没有吹微风的晚上
我们看着山下都市灯光
你说快乐和自由是穷人的天堂
这种想法我很喜欢oh—
女:你要我闭上眼睛想像
有我看不见的一个远方
你说地球是乐园要用心去游览
这种说法多浪漫

男:心在飞 女:心在飞
男:路很长 女:路很长
男:我们是彼此的避风港
男:听着你 女:I Believe
男:聊到从前和未来
男女:你心里所有的梦跟我很像

合:oh you light up my life
所以我也希望我们心中频率都一样
女:梦加点感觉
男:思念装上翅膀
合:爱是无限可能的飞翔oh—
you light up my life
我想让你分享
我们心动时分的梦想
女:这是一个开始
男:还是一种分享
男女:未来正在等待不是吗

男(独白):一直跟你说那天一起吃晚饭
想问你开心吗
这些日子看着你造着自己的梦想
快乐专心的每个样子
我想我们的梦想有一样的频率
不是吗

合:未来我想和你分享

Song ends. Singing doesn't.

The Promise

I've gotten bronze for yesterday's national indiv.. so at least i dun feel as sad now haha. I've figured out my thoughts now yea. I watched Lakehouse with Superwoman last night.. was initially quite confused and amused by the show's concept of time.. but unfortunately I figured out the story midway and I felt bored afterwards..What has happened? I realised that I'm just not as emotional anymore.. Maybe because I've been cheated of my feelings too many times. My wound has hardened.

If it does not, I'll just continue to bleed.

I got into some kind of a trouble with my CT again. He was so worried about my studies that he dragged me to the library on fri. He picked three chemistry books and asked me to study. That time frame was really torturous and pressurizing. Thoughts just keep flashing across my mind. Is there really smth wrong with me? I promised him I'll do my chemistry focus. So I stayed up and did all I can. A promise is a promise. *sigh*

I had rehearsal after that. My mind was really chaotic after the talk with him.

I felt really bad having pple to wait for me too. (sorry dudes)

I think I've been thinking too much. That's why I'm not doing anything.

"David Hume is anxious that you remain sane. If you begin to get into a bad state whilst thinking about these things, he advises you to do what he does, go and have a laugh and a good meal with some friends. You will soon forget about philosophy!" (Hume 1739 Book 1 part 4 section 7).

“我们最正常的地方，就是知道自已是不正常的。”-玲子 <<挪威的森林>>

A defeat is a defeat

A defeat is a defeat. I've nth more to say abt it. It's not so much abt the lost actually; it's more abt everything else that has got to do with it. As usual, painful memories like this will be locked, so I do not really wanna talk abt it. This is the best that I can do in order to "let go".

"I'm fine. I've already decided not to cry anymore." -Kira Yamato

"It is okay to do so. That's why people cry." -Lacus Clyne

(Gundam Seed, episode 46)

I felt hurt spiritually.

I had my lines prepared before I met her, but in the end none of those words came out of my mouth. Instead of crying(which I thought I might), I had a good laugh. I guess thats the best remedy for sadness. Although I think it might not be as relieving as a good cry, it is however, able to cheer me up and make me look on the brighter side of life. I was really tired, but I knew I shouldn't just try to sleep and forget abt it. If you don't get what I mean, go read Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire.

"Kira has too many sorrowful dreams."